Mutiny
Mood:
don't ask
Topic: health
Pain. My body lately is betraying me, working for the other side, the dark side. It's like the major muscles and joints in my body are staging a mutiny. In the beginning, I was just paranoid. The whispers behind my back, the pangs and twinges. Now, it's just out and out warfare. I walk around and the blows come from nowhere, hitting everywhere. My hands, my shoulders, my neck, my feet, my hips, my legs - they're all involved and everyone's pointing fingers. I thought my foot pain was a separate issue, but it definitely is part of the conspiracy. I don't know which is worse - the shredding heat in my bones or the throbbing tension in my muscles. There's not just a knife in my back, there's a fish knife between my shoulder blades and lit matches being held between my fingers. But I don't know any secrets, not ones they're interested in.
Yes, the pain is THAT BAD lately. So bad that R couldn't help but mention it to his mom, who almost dropped everything to help us. She picked Baba up yesterday from daycare to give me a chance to rest. When she came over, with R's aunt and the baby, they helped me clean up and do the dishes. Yes, my mother-in-law did our dishes!
R's aunt is a nurse, so she was full of medical advice. They both were trying to cheer me up and keep me thinking positive. R's mom has Kaiser Insurance, which is a very user-friendly health insurer. She's very cautious about her health, but with good reason, since her heart surgery last year. She is at Kaiser a lot these days. I can only wonder if I would be seeing my rheumatologist sooner if I had Kaiser, and not my current insurance. I called to make an appointment this week, since the pain has become almost unbearable. But the one I have schedule, two weeks away, is the earliest one available. In the meantime, I'm doing more labs tomorrow and confirming my medical records get there. Again, Kaiser would probably have all of that at one central location, making my life a bit less complicated these days. Simple and insurance, not two things you normally hear in the same sentence. But isn't that the ideal?
Posted by mary
at 10:08 PM EDT